yeah, this crappy poetry.

I overreact and I over-think and my mind runs rampant like it should not

How can I act any differently when the world is spinning and just won’t stop?

I want secure footing, to feel whole and to not cut myself down

I know it’s all an overactive imagination, but in it I drown

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popping pills and running this world.

I need help, the pills aren’t helping

I’m going off the edge and I’m excited about it

I’m hyped and I’m crazy and I’m feeling pretty good

You’re sick of life, I’m just getting into it

Loosen up, live a little, and learn to live like me.

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fantasy

Raised on fairy tales with her head in a book

She created her own and ran with them,

Got lost in the clouds and never came down

And here I am still writing stories in my head

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That One

You were the one to hold me together when my world was crashing down

The one who picked me up off the hard, cold, wet ground

The one who pulled me from my sorrow and handed me hope

You are the one that looks to me and sees what I simply don’t

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I wear a cross on my chest, let it lay over my heart

All the while feeling the world tear me apart

I’m a compilation of mistakes and memories and regrets

The sort of things that are insignificant, but the ones I’ll never forget

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She is a disappointment, a lost cause that’s falling apart day by day

The girl that doesn’t bother plastering a smile on her face, because she would rather be broken and real than whole and fake

She is the one that longs for something more in life, but settles for less because it’s all she has

The one staring out a window praying for something better than the life she’s been handed

Knowing that someday, it will be okay and everything will fall into place

But today is still the same shitty day with no sunlight to pull her free

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Angry, Bitter, Sweet

It’s when you realize the pills don’t do shit

It’s when you realize the anger is still there

It’s when you realize the sadness never left

That your soul is crushed and your spirits dead

It’s the realization that nothing can fix you but your will

And that your will is not strong enough to manage that

Help me find my way.

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Inside and Out

There are two sides to me, something that’s inexplicable

Some days I rot away inside, believing I’m nothing worthwhile

Other days I like to think that I’m a gift to the world,

Fake as it may be it makes me feel something better than remorse

And angst, and anger, and self-pity

Because that’s who I am, but it’s not who I want to be

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The dark is enough to swallow me whole

I no longer know how to escape the enjoyment I get from it

Maybe I’m a masochist, but I enjoy the pain and angst

Which makes me wonder if my upbringing didn’t form me to be this way

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Fantasy of Love and Hate

I passionately hate you, and on your side it’s quite the same

I have been wondering for years when we would put an end to this game

I hate the way you smirk like you’re so triumphant over me

I despise the way you laugh, the way you look down your nose with glee

You hate me because I fight you, because I’m a girl that can be strong

You cannot stand me because I’ll prove to you when and how you’re wrong

Forced to be together, we chose hate over love

The only time I’ll forgive you is when I’m free and you’re above

All of this

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